Sunday, October 11, 2015

Garden - Year One

I'm not a total novice when it comes to growing fruits,
vegetables and flowers.  I've had some sort of garden bed
for 20+ years.   But, I've never gardened on a large scale before.  

When we moved to the country last year, it was really too
late to get anything in the ground, so we waited and worked
on fencing, etc until the time came for planting.  

I always have these grand visions and plans on what things are
going to look like, how everything's going to work and I'm always
shocked and amazed when it doesn't work out like that

Mother Nature's taught me quite a few lessons this year and now
that I've been jerked back into reality, I know that my garden
space is going to take time to develop and grow like I want it to.

I can't believe I didn't take any photos of the garden during the
summer,  Here's a few of what's left.   I still have tomatoes, beans
and peppers producing.   I've just planted spinach and beets for
the fall / winter months.

This is my total garden space.   You can't really see the fruit
trees planted, but we have apple, plum, fig and peach trees.  
I've also planted a weeping willow just because I like them 
so much and hope one day for it to be my meditation space.   

Garden beds are going to be built around each tree.  I've been 
doing a lot of reading on permaculture lately and have plans to
garden totally organic.  

Peppers, beans and tomatoes.   We also had a load of cantaloupe
earlier in the year, but not photos because I was not paying attention!  

It's harder work than I had realized working such a space,
plus it's former pasture space, so I'm having to remove a
lot of grass and such.  However, I'm already dreaming and
planning for next year! 

Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Autumn Equinox

Today is the day of balance - equal light and dark.  It seemed like
as good of day as any to return to this space.   I am going to try
to keep up with it and post on a somewhat regular basis.

I read this below on my Instagram feed this morning, in part:

Perhaps life is not about endless refinement or expansion.  Perhaps
it is enough to just BE - with a good book or in the company of
good people and know that we are comfortable and loved. 
                                                               Jennifer Parde

After reading this, I realized how stressed and anxious I've been
lately.  There's so many changes I would like to make in my life,
but many times I'm not sure how to go about it, what it is I want
exactly, just a little bit afraid it won't go as planned....(insert any
number of excuses here).  In visiting with my Dr. lately, she tells
me just to pick a challenge, set a goal and then work towards it.
It doesn't matter if it ends up being the right goal or not....

Since I have always struggled with this space, I thought this would
be a perfect goal.  I am not a writer and have had a love/hate
relationship with this space since I opened it way back when.  

I'm warning you now, it will likely be all over the place as far
as content goes, but right now that's how my mind seems to be
working.  Let's just see how this goes......wish me luck!

Thursday, May 14, 2015

Early Morning Messages

Connection Point.  This was the message that came to me in those
early, almost-awake moments this morning.   What is your connection

I'm learning to paint - it's been something that's been sitting in the corners
of my mind for a while - a desire for a huge canvas where I can just
throw colors around and see what emerges.

I started working on something yesterday and it's not to the point of
what to do next.  I have no real process yet, I'm still searching for my
style and voice.

My creativity is my connection point with God.  Regardless of what I'm
doing, if I'm creating from my heart (and paying attention), I feel the
presence of God.  Mother Nature is another connection point for me.
Her beauty and power open my heart and fill me to bursting.

More and more I feel this is where my path lies - I'm not exactly sure
how or what, but know this is my direction.   I will continue to watch
for the signs She sends.

Saturday, April 25, 2015


Many times in our lives we question why.  Why did this happen to me?
Why do I deserve such pain and disappointment?

And then one day, you wake up and the sun is shining just a little brighter.
The Love in your heart is just a little stronger.  It's in this moment, that God
has answered your question and you understand why it had to happen
the way in did.

And you begin to heal.

Sunday, December 21, 2014

A Winter Solstice Prayer

Dear Mother/Father God, Angels in Earth & Heaven, Spirit guides and Helpers,

Thank you for this day - for the opportunity we have for change.  I pray today for the wisdom and guidance, the awareness to see where and what I need to let go of.  to find those thoughts, actions and beliefs that no longer serve me or the highest good and to send them to the fires for transmutation.

I pray that I can release old hurts (real or imagined) and make space for your true love to enter my being and fill me with Peace.  I pray for human kind as a whole to be able to do the same.

I also ask for the silence and clarity to find my true heart center, that I dwell there at all times.  So that I can be your conduit to spread the light of your love and we as Human can ascend to your highest ideals.

Amen, Aho & Namaste

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Just because it's raining...

The power is out and we're sitting here in the dark.
So, here's my latest project...before/after.  Repurposed kitchen

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

A case of the "don't want to's"

Yesterday I had planned to go back and work in the garden again this morning - the
crabgrass has nearly taken over the corn.  I worked 2 hours yesterday before it got hot
and barely made a dent.  J told me this morning it was going to be hot today and not overdo it.
Which works out fine because I woke up with a case of the don't want to's.

I had such plans when I quit my job and we moved to the country...I was going to work
on the house, work in the garden/flower beds, paint-create to my hearts content....
And I still aspire to those things, but there are days when that just ain't happenin'
body/mind won't move.

Maybe this is the message I've been looking for...take time to slow down and stop the
external chatter.  it's time to look inside  and see what's going on deep in my own soul.
I often fret over the loss of connection with my own spirit, so I will take this time to explore
and meditate to see what comes up.

and later, I may even clean the bathroom...