As the One World One Heart event was winding down, I realized
I had a huge problem - a blog to maintain!
I wanted to be a part of OWOH so badly that I created this
blog in order to join the caravan and then realized I would
have to keep it up (especially since I have gained new
friends in cyberspace that are following this space)....I
would have to post my thoughts & views regarding this journey
of life we're on....I would have to be funny & wise, interesting,
thoughtful & intelligent! Believe me, I was not feeling it at
all - in fact, I've been paralyzed with fear! So, I went in to
shut-down mode and have spent these last few weeks on the couch
staring at the tv as it slowly turned my brain to jelly!
About 5 yrs. ago I decided I wanted to be an artist & create
these fabulous mythological masks....I've been creative most of
my life, I can sew / do cross-stitch, I garden, my house is
decorated nicely and when I'm in the mood, I can cook something
that will knock your socks off! However, I can't sing or dance,
can't draw a decent stickman or write wonderfully entertaining
stories - all things that "real" artists do....how is it I ever
thought I could do this?? How can I ever be a real artist??
Somewhere in all this wallowing and whining that I've been doing,
I think I may have had one of those moments, when you think
"wait a minute, I am a creative woman and if nothing else, my life
is my art". I may never create anything that is considered a great
piece of art - I doubt I will ever be considered the next Monet or
Shakespeare, but you know? It doesn't really matter any more...
I'm me and really that's exactly who I want to be!
I can't seem to stay out of the garden these days - Spring is so
close, I can feel it....it's still too early to plant anything -
but I've been cleaning and planning - my seed/plant catalogs are
dog-eared with choices and I'm ready to go...So, for now, the garden
is my canvas and all is right in my world.....