Friday, December 24, 2010

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas








Merry Christmas Everyone! I hope your Holiday is full of
love and laughter....

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Where do you want to go?

That's a simple enough question....and my
answer is just as simple...I want to live
from my core...the real me.
Honest, loving, simple and deep.

(I recently read a story on the internet
about a young man who had lived next door
to Fred Rogers. And while I don't
remeber a lot about the story...what I
do remember is Mr. Rogers telling him
that living simple and deep was always
better than living shallow and complex).

Earlier in the year when my Knight and I
decided to begin this remodel project of
our future retirement home, it didn't take
long (or rocket-science) to realize that the
contents of my current 1800 sq ft home is
not going to fit into my future 900 sq ft.
home...suddenly, I found myself able to
"let go" of so many things that I once
felt was so important.

I've read posts this week from ladies
who are struggling to find the Christmas
Spirit and then suddenly a simple strand
of lights or a twinkling glitter star will
remind them of their childhood and things
will fall into place and that love and
peace of the Holiday season will walk right
in; reminders of the fact that with
imperfections, light comes seeping through
the cracks and if we get out of our own
way and let go, miracles will happen...

And so, as the Christmas season approaches,
I'm not as stressed about gifts and menus...
simple gifts from the heart, time spent with
family and friends and phone calls to those
who can't join us this year.....

Love & Peace, simple & deep....
I hope you find yours.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

i miss you....

i'm wondering, how many times can you write the
words i miss you on a piece of paper? it would
not be enough to ease the longing in my heart.

i'm wondering, do you remember the love and
adoration i felt for you as my baby boy?
do you know that i have that same feeling for
you as a grown man?

you have your own life to live now with a
beautiful wife and wonderful children. it's
what i always prayed you would have.

and i have new paths to explore in my own life.
they will be much quieter than the past, but
no less exciting and just as sweet.

however, i miss you......

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Year end review...

I guess it's that time of year when we begin to
look back, reflect over this past year...the good,
the bad, what should have been and what was.

To keep this brief, 2010 was not a bad
year...but, not a good year either....I lost
touch with myself and my soul began to dry up
from the loss of that contact. I had very
few creative thoughts and even less creative
energy.

Oh, it wasn't a horrible year...we've begun work
on renovating our future home in the country...
Lots of dirt and sweat and dreams of gardens &
chickens kept me going through the summer....



But this seems all surface to me...In less than
a month, I will turn 50 yrs. old...it's time for
some real changes.

So, this is the goal for 2011....a return to
myself....I fear there is some hard work ahead
with lots of dirt and sweat and dreams of
gardens and chickens to keep me going....