Friday, April 13, 2012

signs.....

I’m tired of living the life of what society considers the “status quo”.   Monday – Friday, 9-5 is just not doing it for me anymore.  
I feel like if I look hard enough that I can find the loose corner on the veil in my mind…..peeling it back to reveal a new layer, a new way to be, a new way to live
This is my intent for 2012….to look for and / or create my own little world.

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I wrote the above and emailed it to myself on January 20, 2012.    It was "one of those mornings"  I was in a pissy mood....didn't want to go to work...didn't like my job....ready to move to the farm and can't.  I've moved on from that mood (sort of), but still seem to have that same residual feeling in the back of my mind.....just sitting there, waiting...and watching. 

Last week, in my wandering through the wwweb, I found The Art of Nonconformity.  I don't even remember now how or what I was originally looking for.

I know we've all been told that God knows what we need before we even ask.  But to actually see that materialize before your very eyes is pretty amazing (and comforting).
And I took it for the sign that it is - I've ordered the book.....can't wait to see what happens!  

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

This is one of those times....

Life it seems has a change of plans....Just a few weeks ago I was talking about moving on....tired of waiting on others in order to live my life the way I want.  Plans!  Actions!  Going!  Doing! 

Now, it seems, I have come to a stand-still....afraid....afraid of sinking....struggling
to move forward, but somehow losing my map, not knowing the way....

Obviously, this is one of those "times"....when you are supposed to use this time
to look inside, explore those feelings, thoughts, etc....in order to move on to the next
step. 

But, what if you take the time to look only to find nothing there?