Thursday, July 26, 2012

Signs, Signs, Everywhere are signs....

It all began Memorial Day weekend with the arrival of the Hawk.

I see hawks all the time when we're driving - sitting in the trees,
on fence posts - just hanging out doing their Hawk thing...
But I've never seen one at the Farm, nor have I ever heard one.

But, that Sunday while we were having a family bbq, one flew
overhead, let out that cry, circled a few times and then left.  I have
not seen him since.  I was the only one who saw him & I knew
then it was a sign....I just didn't know what it meant.

**Hawk is a messenger & comes to you indicating you are now awakening to your soul purpose.  Its message for you is to be open to hope & new ideas, to extend the vision of your life.



The night before the Hawk came, I had a dream.  In my dream, I was talking with my Dad & I had given him a feather to make his burdens lighter.  I woke up that next morning knowing I would find the feather I needed that day.

Later that afternoon, our sons and grandsons had gone fishing.  When they
returned, one of my grandsons gave me a feather he had found - the gift
of a Blue Heron.



**Heron teaches self-esteem & balancing life's daily tasks.  She looks deeper into aspects of life which brings out innate wisdom & teaches that grounding yourself in the earth, spiritual & emotional insights will become clearer.




Yesterday, on my drive in to work, I am thinking to myself about doing an online course with Pixie Campbell.  Do I want to spend the money?   Will I truly do the work required to make sure I actually get something out of the class?  Will I spend this time on myself?   I am sitting at a traffic light when I notice the Dragonfly.   She is hovering right in front of my window -
in the middle of a busy intersection....



**Dragonfly symbolizes change & change in perspective of self realization.   The kind of change in mental & emotional maturity & the understanding of  the deeper meaning of life.





Hang on, we're not through yet.....As I walk out the door this morning on
my way to work, an Egret is sitting in a tree across the street from my house.   I watch him rise and fly away.




**Egret teaches us to stand in the physical & spiritual worlds.  He teaches the healing of emotions in order to bridge the heart & mind.  This also correlates to grounding properties in order to receive & process spiritual & emotional insights for greater clarity.



I think I get the message....I have work to do.  I have signed up for the class. 

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(Pictures and information from the www)   

Friday, July 20, 2012

Colorado.....

I am holding you tight in my heart
and sending you love.   You are my
prayers.

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Whining......or not

I've been spending a lot of time at www.rootsofshe.com lately....reading and absorbing
every little morsel I can.  These ladies living and speaking their truth is very encouraging
and have me so hopeful for a bright future.  I'm convinced the younger generation will
save us!

But, by the end of today, I was mentally wiped out and in such a whiney, bitchy mood.
The job has just beat me down!  (And no time off in sight....)

I'm feeling frustrated and depressed.  I can feel the cracks forming and I want to break
out of this shell, grow new feathers and fly!  But, I just can't see the way....I'm not sure
how to go about birthing this new me.  I feel lost and afraid....afraid I will never realize
my dreams. 

I sometimes wonder if in reality, I am living my truth and I just don't realize it.  It's not
like I'm totally miserable - I just know there's something more, something deeper and
I just can't find the path.  It's driving me insane!

By the time I got home, I was ready to crawl in bed and pull the covers over my head, but
my Man suggested dinner at our favorite Mexican food restaurant.  So, after a plate full
of veggie fajitas and a trip to the home improvement store for supplies for the farmhouse
remodel, I was in a better mood.  He definitely knows the way to my heart!  HA.  I am
in a better mood and inclined to be a bit more grateful for the blessings in my life.

I know I still have this road ahead of me and I know it won't be easy, but I won't give
up and with God's help, eventually I will make it. 






Wednesday, July 11, 2012

MIA

Where did June go?  For that matter, we're almost to the middle
of July....time is moving much to fast! 

I wish I could say that I've been so busy - conjuring and creating,
or even planning to conjur and create.  Alas, no - I haven't been doing
a thing.

My babies did come home in late June - My son and his wife are both
serving in the USAir Force and had been stationed in Germany the last
3 years.  I was not able to get over there to see them (and their babies),
so having them home for 10 days was pure heaven!  Plus, they are
now stationed in Texas....even though it's still quite a drive - at least
they are in the same state!